Category: Personal reflection

May 20, 2020

If only I had listened to me.

Racing and pacing through my own mind has made me a prisoner of self. Day in, day out and the pace got more intense, have I reaching self-awareness or self destruction. I clearly had alot to say to myself but in all the racing, it just never made sense. My mind needs peace, so can I have it?

May 14, 2020

Why did you stay?

My unconscious habits of pushing people away has always been my way of life, and it had proven effective in keeping me in my own deep dark world of loneliness and constant replay of my life’s down bad choices. So naturally pushing people away kept me and my demons in good peaceful company, but you decided to stay…… Why? From ignoring your texts, ignoring your […]

May 13, 2020

Still waiting for the right time….

Forever waiting for the right moment to start living my life the way I want to and to be honest it’s been a long 25 and half years of waiting. I have been feeling off these past few months and I’m not completely sure why and this year as an entity isn’t really making things any easier for me. With the outbreak of corona and […]

February 28, 2020

Rich dad Poor dad and a confused me.

So after months of having my younger cousin nag me about reading Rich dad Poor dad, I finally picked up the copy of it and started reading it. It might have taken me awhile to fully understand the concept behind it all and for all I know, I’m still very much lost in the financial illiteracy forest. The mere idea of the idea that “The […]

January 25, 2020

You’ll be fine, so they said…..

Time heals all wounds, they said….Don’t get over it, go through it ,they said 😏 feel all they pain and deal with it, they preached …. Well I DID just that !! and yet twenty years later here I am feel as worthless as I did back then. Why won’t time heal my wounds? What do i have to do ? Is it the constant […]

December 29, 2019

Make it stop…

All the thinking, all the stressing and all the feeling inadequate. Sometimes it all gets too much to the point of feeling my chest close in and getting light-headed all because I just can’t stop to breath. Personally I could make a whole list to things, people and situations to blame for these slight panic attacks, but truth is I am lacking emotional intelligence as […]