August 2, 2020

Addicted to pain

As weird as it may sound, its real. The addiction to pain is a conscious yet unconscious decision to keep ones’ own self in a vicious self hatred cycle, to keep yourself from being happy as you feel you are undeserving of happiness. The addiction to pain could be simplified by the need to constantly bring up old hurtful memories in order to keep that […]

July 28, 2020

Am I complete or do I need you to complete me?

The whole idea of a relationship was to find someone to complete you and together be whole as one. 10 years down the line, the new emphasis is on finding a whole complete person, no longer to complete you but to compliment you. Where do I find a complete person without battle scars from past attempts at true love. What classifies a person as whole […]

July 26, 2020

What would happen if we just stopped?

With everything being instant. Its getting harder and harder to just stop and be in the moment that is happening at that current time and space. In efforts to connect, we just seem to be further apart. Would you die from FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out) if you just took a second to just stop and take it all in. It is not about the […]

July 25, 2020

Waiting on yourself

What are you waiting for in your life.. we live in a constant state of motion and yet we are waiting for something. We want something big to prove to us that we are on the right path or, are we just dangling and going with the flow. You keep telling yourself that it is going to get better, but you still do nothing different […]

July 25, 2020

In question of self

What to feel when feelings let you down? Have you ever been your own worst nightmare and the thought of your own existence freaked you out. How can I not feel anything? Is feeling nothing a feeling? I don’t know what I feel these days. Days turn to weeks, weeks into months and months into years all just trying to figure out what I’m feeling, […]

June 6, 2020

#shock of the day

The average high school kid today has the same level of anxiety as the average psychiatric patient in the early 1950s … That shocked me and I just had to share it, because I believe it to be true.

June 1, 2020

Affirmation seekers

If I had to stop and think about me myself as a young black woman, honestly nothing comes to mind, as I am left wondering Who am I? Knowing where I am, not just physically but also mentally and spiritually would really just remove the load on my shoulders. I ask the people around me, Who am I, and they describe someone foreign to me. […]

May 20, 2020

If only I had listened to me.

Racing and pacing through my own mind has made me a prisoner of self. Day in, day out and the pace got more intense, have I reaching self-awareness or self destruction. I clearly had alot to say to myself but in all the racing, it just never made sense. My mind needs peace, so can I have it?