September 6, 2020

Getting a little hopeless in the search for more

There has to be more than what we are experiencing, there has to be a higher force to it. I want more, I deserve more but what is more? I don’t even know what more is but I am in search of more. Honestly don’t need much but there must be more to it than this right here. Is this it?, I’m not saying I’m […]

August 25, 2020

The reason why self love is soo hard to attain

Somehow loving yourself just seems just a little harder than what I had originally envisioned. I know I’m good enough and I know what I am capable of. I understand where I’m coming from and I know where I’m going. So why is hard for me to proudly and honestly say ” I love myself, unconditionally” Firstly, what does loving one’s own self mean? Do […]

August 18, 2020

You see me as you see yourself

How you see me, is only but a reflection of how you see yourself or how you think I see you. So who are you? Are you who you think you are or who you think I think you should be? Self projection will be the death of our society. You cheat because you think I’m cheating, you gossip about me because you think I’m […]

August 3, 2020

I’m tired of fighting

It’s draining, it’s pointless and makes me weak yet fuels my toxic attraction to you. I need your attention and it seems fighting is the only way to keep you online long enough to feed my craving for you. The reason I can’t keep doing this to myself is beyond logic . I don’t want to lose you too, because I have already lose myself, […]

August 2, 2020

Addicted to pain

As weird as it may sound, its real. The addiction to pain is a conscious yet unconscious decision to keep ones’ own self in a vicious self hatred cycle, to keep yourself from being happy as you feel you are undeserving of happiness. The addiction to pain could be simplified by the need to constantly bring up old hurtful memories in order to keep that […]

July 28, 2020

Am I complete or do I need you to complete me?

The whole idea of a relationship was to find someone to complete you and together be whole as one. 10 years down the line, the new emphasis is on finding a whole complete person, no longer to complete you but to compliment you. Where do I find a complete person without battle scars from past attempts at true love. What classifies a person as whole […]