August 3, 2020
I’m tired of fighting
It’s draining, it’s pointless and makes me weak yet fuels my toxic attraction to you. I need your attention and it seems fighting is the only way to keep you online long enough to feed my craving for you. The reason I can’t keep doing this to myself is beyond logic . I don’t want to lose you too, because I have already lose myself, […]
August 2, 2020
Addicted to pain
As weird as it may sound, its real. The addiction to pain is a conscious yet unconscious decision to keep ones’ own self in a vicious self hatred cycle, to keep yourself from being happy as you feel you are undeserving of happiness. The addiction to pain could be simplified by the need to constantly bring up old hurtful memories in order to keep that […]
July 28, 2020
Am I complete or do I need you to complete me?
The whole idea of a relationship was to find someone to complete you and together be whole as one. 10 years down the line, the new emphasis is on finding a whole complete person, no longer to complete you but to compliment you. Where do I find a complete person without battle scars from past attempts at true love. What classifies a person as whole […]
July 26, 2020
What would happen if we just stopped?
With everything being instant. Its getting harder and harder to just stop and be in the moment that is happening at that current time and space. In efforts to connect, we just seem to be further apart. Would you die from FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out) if you just took a second to just stop and take it all in. It is not about the […]
July 25, 2020
Waiting on yourself
What are you waiting for in your life.. we live in a constant state of motion and yet we are waiting for something. We want something big to prove to us that we are on the right path or, are we just dangling and going with the flow. You keep telling yourself that it is going to get better, but you still do nothing different […]
July 25, 2020
In question of self
What to feel when feelings let you down? Have you ever been your own worst nightmare and the thought of your own existence freaked you out. How can I not feel anything? Is feeling nothing a feeling? I don’t know what I feel these days. Days turn to weeks, weeks into months and months into years all just trying to figure out what I’m feeling, […]
June 6, 2020
#shock of the day
The average high school kid today has the same level of anxiety as the average psychiatric patient in the early 1950s … That shocked me and I just had to share it, because I believe it to be true.