January 29, 2021

Self sabotage

If I could make it stop by the snap of my fingers, like Thanos did in Avengers, then trust me I would. But I can’t and believe me I have tried. I purpose place myself in such situations where I just lose sense of my goal. But what is my goal, not only have I lost sense of it but I dont even know what […]

November 10, 2020

I’m drowning

I’m drowning, I’m drowning in fear, in pain and in frustration. It is pulling me inward in such a way that, I can’t even stream out for help. It creeps up on me even in the most un-triggered of times. I can’t see how this ends. The stages this comes at me is confusing, if I’m not numb, then I’m sad or depressed and people […]

October 21, 2020

Why is love soo scary….?

We have been through this before and it didn’t end so well, it might have not been with you, but in a way it was. I know how I am when in love and it ain’t pretty. The idea of me losing myself again is terrifying. I will never understand why love is now scary. You are different, or so I wish you are but […]

October 6, 2020

False self image alert

So its said how you see the world is a reflection of how you see yourself. The idea of self image is the very defining point of it. If that is true, then one of my perceptions is lying. I personally see the world as full of opportunities and hope, but internally I’m numb. I know it doesn’t make any sense but somehow it does. […]