Month: May 2020

May 20, 2020

If only I had listened to me.

Racing and pacing through my own mind has made me a prisoner of self. Day in, day out and the pace got more intense, have I reaching self-awareness or self destruction. I clearly had alot to say to myself but in all the racing, it just never made sense. My mind needs peace, so can I have it?

May 15, 2020

FEAR

Fear is always there lingering at the back of ones mind. fear of being seen for who we really are fear of rejection fear of failure fear of not being enough fear of being hurt The fear of not being loved…… While all those fears seem common enough, it’s the fear of positivity that makes me wonder. The fear of being accepted, because that might […]

May 14, 2020

Why did you stay?

My unconscious habits of pushing people away has always been my way of life, and it had proven effective in keeping me in my own deep dark world of loneliness and constant replay of my life’s down bad choices. So naturally pushing people away kept me and my demons in good peaceful company, but you decided to stay…… Why? From ignoring your texts, ignoring your […]

May 13, 2020

Still waiting for the right time….

Forever waiting for the right moment to start living my life the way I want to and to be honest it’s been a long 25 and half years of waiting. I have been feeling off these past few months and I’m not completely sure why and this year as an entity isn’t really making things any easier for me. With the outbreak of corona and […]